Parent(s) and People..

[danishani2]

Ok so my Mom and my dad divorced.
Ugh I don't even know where to start.
My mom is constantly grinding on my gears.
Not by saying "Do your chores, Do this do that.".
But by drugs.
She overdoses on her meds alot.
To a point she didn't even know who I was.
So now I'm...Cutting.
And it's getting really bad and it's to the point where I'm about to snap.
I just needed to let this out.
I am living with my grandmother on weekends well like Friday - Monday.
She gets on my nerves so bad (my mom).
Also I feel like I've lost some of my friends like they haven't been talking to me.
And it hurts I know life gets in the way and all.
But, when you see them online and you im them they don't respond.
It hurts.. Because I love all my friends.
I'm depressed like 24/7.
I miss my friends and I miss my mom.

[noeidog]

I am sorry sweetie. I know above all how hard it is to be in a world that seems at it's worse. I grew up in a home that wasn't the best enviroment in the world. My mom and dad were constantly drinking and fighting and hurting each other bad. My sister and I always seemed to get the worse of it. Life at home was anything but good. My mom had problems with her nerves, both her and my dad was taking legal nerve medication (like 2 pills a day). That really affected them greatly. Things never seemed right. We were really never a family. I mean I can't even recall my parents even telling me they loved me. Divorce happened between my parents a couple of times.
So I left home when I was 15 and got married to a military guy, the guy turned out to be very abusive physically. My whole life seemed like such a mess. I just wanted to hurt myself, because it seemed like there was no way out. Then one day several years later, after I had 2 children, I walked away from the relationship and I ended up in another marriage, that was just as bad, if not worse. My second husband was all about drugs and drinking and guns. It was then I fell into a supernatural dark world, where magic and spells and tarots led my life. I got so mixed up and deeply involved. And then in 1992, I left the marriage. I stayed single for 5 years and remarried in 1997. It is almost 2009 and we have been together since and things have never worked out better.
The reason I am telling you this is. I understand hard knocks in life and the pain of wanting the escape. Trust me when I say, things will get better along the way. The advice for now, find something you can absorb into. Like reading or writing and let that become your world of escape. I will tell you what a stranger once told me and I will remember the words till my dying day. "Life is not fair, but God is good." It took me sometime to understand. But I did and you will too.
Just remember to hang on and find your focus and life will turn around. That's a promise.

[Sanctum]

Hi, sorry to hear when people have bad times. I know all too well of that. I'm not gonna fill in a long history of the misery which has been in my past. Just stick to the present. As you notice the long list of ts2 I've created being uploaded (which still has quite a ways to go) must tell you that I live mostly isolated. RL gets too cruel and uncaring, so I turn to cyber, only to find things not much better. It's just as bad to get blown off by being stood up by people in rl as it is as to have im's and pm's ignored by those who claim to be your friends.
My isolation has turned me towards sinking myself in art, which comes out mainly in ts2 cc. So now even that gets attacked, and me for creating. People start hate threads about me out there (which run pages long) trying to hurt. Yes they succeed, it does hurt, deeply. I hope one of them reads this (I know they will) so they can know they have completed their mission.
But I can't let that control me, please don't read into this like I'm preaching at ya, but hang in there, like Noeidog said, find something where you can involve yourself. You made me laugh, which don't happen much lately, with your backwards writing, I loved it!
I'm not gonna give you the "I'm your friend" routine, I figure your smart enough to know, that I don't know you. But I'm gonna tell you my heart does go out to you. Stick around and visit the site here, get involved, the sims2 is an escape for me, and this is where I go online. Anywhere else isn't overly welcome for me.

[LyricLee]

First mt apologies to Dani for the rude interuption to her post.

Secondly to the poster who's comments were removed.
This was Dani's place to share her problems with her friends. I happen to have known her for years, I know her family and I know where she is. I know personally about her issues and more about her than you so I do not appreciate you coming here and slamming two of my members who offered her support and love because they didn't do it your way.

[LyricLee]

The other post was bashing the hell out of people. End of story. I appreciate your concern, and Dani knows what REAL ADULT guidance is. Your thinly veiled sneer at me was quite cute. If everyone is so concerned, tho they don't even know Dani like I do, then PM her with your concern, dont come here and bash other people who were reaching out to her as well.
As I said I have a personal relationship with Dani and you know nothing of that so don't act like I'm not helping her. I'm allowing my friend to rant like she needs to. She doesn't need people who are being nice to her to be bashed.

[danishani2]

Okay, First of all don't judge the book by it's cover about ANYONE.
I've talked to Lyric privately and she's helped me ALOT.
I'm very close with her and yes I've kown her for years.
I came here to vent and this is what happens?
For the person who bashed out the people who were giving me their story to help me to show no matter how tough life gets you can do it.
I got the message they told.
I appreciate them for it too so thank you.
But, for that person who bashed them out.
Look I got your concern and everything but don't bash out my friends like that that's one thing that gets me upset.
Especially saying I'm fake and a child.
Yes, I am a child but I'm also growing into an adult myself.
I'm 15 I don't need you bashing telling otr people what to say they're old enough to give me advice and love without someone telling them how like a small child being lectured.
Speaking of childish.
That was uncalled for and yes it was rude.
I'm leaving it at this.
Thank you for all the people who supported me and care for me I care for you and love you.
And Lyric you're like a mom to me I love you hun.
Lyric knows me extremely well and I know her too extremely well.
She helps me alot she's there when I need her.
I've told her ALL about my past and what's happening now.
I'm here for her anytime and she does the same for me.
Mad? Yes, I am mad I didn't know my friends would get bashed out and lectured over not saying the right thing that you may think is right.
Gosh, get a life and grow up.
Yes, My life is hard but I don't need anybody to make it harder for me to cope.

[glorf]

Ok so my Mom and my dad divorced.
Ugh I don't even know where to start.
My mom is constantly grinding on my gears.
Not by saying "Do your chores, Do this do that.".
But by drugs.
She overdoses on her meds alot.
To a point she didn't even know who I was.
So now I'm...Cutting.
And it's getting really bad and it's to the point where I'm about to snap.
I just needed to let this out.
I am living with my grandmother on weekends well like Friday - Monday.
She gets on my nerves so bad (my mom).
Also I feel like I've lost some of my friends like they haven't been talking to me.
And it hurts I know life gets in the way and all.
But, when you see them online and you im them they don't respond.
It hurts.. Because I love all my friends.
I'm depressed like 24/7.
I miss my friends and I miss my mom.

Hi Dani

I registered here, just so I could respond to this post, and I've debated for days, whether to or not, well here I go

BTW,I like the jacket, my son has one just like it

I understand a little about what you're going through, but I won't claim to understand it all

my ex abused perscription medication, that's part of the reason she's my ex, i tried to help her, but some people don't want help, and there comes a time, you have to do what is best for you

I also suffer from depression, for longer than you've been alive, most times it's not so bad, I've learned to take each day as it comes, I try not to think about the past, or worry too much about the future, today is what's important

after the divorce, my stepdaughter, who was younger than you at the time, began cutting herself, it scared me, I spent many a sleepless night worrying about her, but since she wasn't my "real" daughter, and after the divorce I didn't have visitation, there wasn't much I could do

but she's 20 now, she found a wonderful man (the first one wasn't so wonderful) and she just gave birth to her second child, she's very happy now, but she'll be the first to say, she had a rotten teenage years

you're life is just begining, your whole future is in front of you, I won't try and tell you that someday you'll forget all about this, we both know I'd be lying if I did, but I will tell you, that in time the scars will fade, and I'm not just talking about the physical scars, but the emotional scars too

I'd ask you to please stop cutting yourself, but I know you probably can't until things in your life change for the better

so instead I'll ask you to please be careful........ please
there may be a moment when you're upset,and go a little deeper than you mean to, and this world will loose another wonderful person, and we need all the wonderful people we can get, cause there's far too many jerks here too

we need the nice ones to help balance it out

finally, have you talked to your mother about this? told her how this is affecting you?

I know your parents are divorced, what about your dad, is he someone you could talk to?

I know this is probably the wrong thing to say, but do you go to counseling?

sometimes it helps to just talk to someone

all I can say is hang in there, things will get better, you just have to give it enough time, i know at your age 3 years seems like forever, but trust me, someday you'll be almost 40 like me, wondering where the time went LOL

well, that's about all I can think of to say, take care of yourself, Ok?